Saturday, June 11, 2011

#Trust30: Fear

The Eiffel tower at sunrise, taken from the Pl...Image via Wikipedia
I am terrified of heights.

This means that my dream of standing at the top of the Eiffel Tower may never happen.

This fear is not worth more than the experiences I have already missed. I didn’t climb to the top of the Leaning Tower of Pisa or take the elevator up the St. Louis Arch because I was afraid. It would be ridiculous to allow this fear to continue to rule my life.

I like to think that my fear only affects me, but it doesn’t. Because I’m afraid, my husband doesn’t get to do these things, either. Not that I would stop him – but he doesn’t like to leave me on the ground while he goes up without me. Do I really want to go to Paris and stand at the base of this incredible structure instead of standing on top and seeing the whole of Paris?

My greatest fear has always been that my weight will somehow cause the collapse of whatever structure I am standing on – which is patently ridiculous. With the exception of being taller than most women, I am a normal-sized human being. I’ve watched as bigger men, both in stature and weight, did what I feared to do.

I won’t let this fear stop me anymore. There are cityscapes and vistas I want to see, and I’ll never see them while standing on the ground. I’m done letting this interfere with my life.

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  1. This is yet, another great post. Susan, I want you to do something for me. Sense you have written this down here. All your online friends know about this. But, let this statement be known to your family members as well. That way, when you go to Paris and stare up at that tower. You have no choice but to go up. Face your fears. That's the only way to conquer them. I know you can do it. We'll be waiting for photos of you at the top.

  2. No worries, husband reads my blog. He'll keep me honest, and the next time we're anywhere with a tall building, I'll post pictures!


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